This morning I found myself in an odd situation where I may have sabotaged a potential job opportunity.
(Sonal, what has this got to do with film? Dude, wait. I’m getting there, this is part of the set up. You need to work on your set up. Yes, I know. Shush!)
The role is a rewarding, though challenging marketing/comms/eventy role – something that has helped me earn my crust for years. The person I’d be working with is super nice and it’d be a great opportunity. BUT. I told her that if the role (currently part time) was to move into full time after the project, then I wasn’t interested. I need to focus on filmmaking.
I’m aware how foolish I may sound and there is no doubt that I need a proper working wage right now. But the reason we came back to Australia (aside from my visa expiring – though we have a solution to that too) is to make films. I feel that I can’t let anything get in the way of that. I’ve had great full time jobs, but they always left little time for me to create.
I can’t think of anything worse than no longer being able to write. And I think I’d be a lousy employee anyway if I became that frustrated.
I may come to rue saying this, but I really hope not.